[THOUGHTS] How a Freelancer Thinks At 3H12 AM, Full Moon In Indonesia

3:12 night.

Full moon tonight, 

New place,

humid weather,

Fan noise,

De-fragmenting my hard drives,

Lake Toba is near.

Virgin beaches are hours away!

Sleep is calling, how come? 

I thought I already kicked it with a power nap.

Thinking much! 

Not thinking enough,

Michael Jackson in my head, 

Badbadbad!

Confused about local time, 

Thinking of past friends,

Needing more money,

How will I pay the next rent,

Will it work? Stop dreaming,

Focus, focus, take a coffee,

oh my! Ukraine is at war! 

What was his name again,

Wishing for better results,

I will get better results.

When will I get married? 

Oh, where are the pictures of my nieces? 

I miss them.

Happy but tired.

Tired but excited,

Planing the day after,

Ignoring the day after,

Why did I spend much on this project?

Setting my alarm clock to 12, no 2 pm, noun-setting my alarm clock,

feeling positive,

It’s gonna be crazy work to make it work.

Eating chocolate biscuits,

Healthy, YEAH! 

Unhealthy for sure, YEAH!,

I must get myself a job.

Hell no! 

It’s this way or nothing, oh my! 

Mosquitoes around! 

Who cares, I got plenty of blood.

Ah, finally starting the project… Not really,

wishing I already finished it,

Seriously!

I try to convince myself that I’m doing it, that I’m succeeding in it.

No results yet!

Who cares! 

I need this, and I feel thisI want thisI finish this, and hell yeahI’m thisthis is who Im, 

I loved it. I love it, I will love it.

Thank god I did it. Thank god I’m still doing it.

This is how freelancers think sometimes… Almost all the time, but guess what…

IT FEELS GOOD.

What about you, do you sometimes feel kind of crazy while freelancing?

Ps: can’t decide how many coffee bags to poor in my cup, mmmm, dilemma.

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